Leave Me God

The lord is upon me
I can feel his gaze
With every sting of the sun
The nails are rust
The cross is burning
His blood is lost
His flesh is rotting
Why do you persist to exist?

Give me hell any day
The light yields only decay
Reap and rape the soul
I am in the end just a tool
An instrument of will
Not my own
He is onto the kill

Abba, father of pain
Torment has hailed like acid rain
I cannot repent
Yet I force regret
You know this as much as the hairs on my head
Witnessing how the scars have bled
Holy or unholy
I cannot differ
On my knees I beg of you to begone
Please!
I beg you!
Begone!

The sun is black
There is no going back
You will never take me alive
Oh heavens
Let me die
Tear off my wings
Let me bleed in peace